This past week has been fraught with emotion (both positive and difficult)...some of it self-inflicted by a series of bad decisions (my own bad decisions), some due to equipment failures (ugh), some due to seeing (again) the reality of human nature (not everyone shows integrity) and some from realizing the importance of positive relationships (thanks valerie, paula, kate and jeremy for all of the words of support this week). I think the weeks that feel like they bring you so low you can't see why you do what you do, are important to have every now and then (oh, the knowledge of hindsight). If you work through and turn to those you respect, admire and love, then embarking upon that climb back up to where you can't even see that low point anymore is a lot easier.
Often, I am just going along, doing what I do, not thinking too much about how or why, when I'm faced with having to define for myself why I do what I do and how I continue to make it work for me (uh...is that called growth?). It's not always the most easy thing to confront. Sometimes you see your own behavior has hindered you..or your own obsession with things that do not matter that keep you from focusing on what is important and you loose sight of the skills and knowledge you have gained. But through it all, if you're willing, you humble yourself and begin to see the value in what you do and the relationships you have forged.
This new week is going to be better. My sewing machine has returned and is working better than ever (it was burrs on the bobbin loopers). I will have another person begin working for/with me this week (welcome Sarah!). This will help me to come out from under the overwhelming amount of sewing that needs to be done every day and allow me to better manage all aspects of the business...and hopefully shorten my turnaround time for orders. I have realized (again) how lucky I am to have Jeremy as a constant source of support, encouragement, advice and know-how. And to have Parker...the charming 10 year old who keeps me grounded. They are wonderful and I am lucky.
I apologize for the armchair post this morning...I know, we're not supposed to show our weaknesses in this competitive world we live in, but I can't deny that I am emotional..and therefore human..so take it as reassurance that Moop is run by humans..not robots.
I am looking forward to this new week. It's going to be really good.